Monday, January 16, 2012

Me.

I’ve been thinking about my life a bit…

I married the guy I dated at the end of college. We have three boys who somehow all resemble my husband, I thought my genes would be stronger. I drink my coffee with more creamer than coffee. My alarm clock is set for 5:10am Monday through Friday. I blowdry and straighten my hair every third day. I can’t remember the lyrics to any songs other than Jingle Bells and Our God is an Awesome God. I check my weight by how tight my jeans are and 99% of the time my toenails are polished . I love asparagus and spinach but loath broccoli and brussel sprouts. Most mornings I hop I into my SUV and drive my kids across town to the the top-rated schools in our city. On special days, we stop by Starbucks for hot chocolate and bagels, as well as picking up a latte for the teacher. I get to walk my kids to the gate or doorway of school each morning.  I enjoy cooking and am currently lusting over the LeCreuset dutch oven at Williams-Sonoma. I don’t own a food processor and think that’s a crime. I’ve never gone hungry a day in my life. My boys have two sets of grandparents who love them like crazy and spoil them rotten. (My 3 year-old thinks life’s biggest injustice is that he doesn’t have a $100 bill.) All while they have so many toys, they don’t even know that I stash some of them away. My hands are always dry because I wash them too much. I have anti-bac/soap/wipes in the diaper bag, in my handbag, at every sink in the house, at the diaper station, in the cabinet by the toilet, and strategically placed at 4 separate places in my car. ( A little OCD?) Last week my biggest travesty was that holes broke through on my designer jeans. Not those jeans. IMG_7370

As I type this on my fairly new laptop, the current book that I just received from amazon is sitting on the arm of my chair. My cell phone is a foot away along with my DSLR camera and make-up bag. Note, there is no Target make-up in that bag. IMG_7371

I live in the perfect American box.

Husband, check.

Kids, check.

Home, check.

Car, check.

Two dogs, check.

College education, check.

Credit cards in wallet, check.

Completely unsatisfied and always wanting more, check, check, check.

I believe its time for a change. I don’t like the sort of change I feel coming on. You know, sometimes Jesus prompts us a little out of our comfort zone so He can do great things. Yeah, I’d much rather say I’ll see you after a trip to Nordstrom .

12 comments:

Nicolle said...

Oh yes, this post spoke right to my heart. I had a change a few years ago, and let me tell you, it may be uncomfortable at first, but you will LOVE it. Comfort zones are highly overrated. :)

xo.

SZM said...

oh gosh....that was convicting.

Lori said...

it is good to step back and realize that once you are happy with what you do have then you don't really need what you thought you needed. Love yourself for who you are, because you are worth it

Joseph said...

It sounds like you would benefit from reading Radical by David Platt. To get a quick glance of the point of the book here's a link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aoicm4wnQ4c

Cathy said...

Ok, are you just trying to lose friends?! I SO wish we lived closer!!! We are spoiled rotten. I, too, want to change. Why is it so hard for me to be perfectly, simply content? xoxo

Megan said...

Well, I don't know exactly where you are headed...but it has to be good. Shake it up, sister.

Genn said...

I hear ya girlfriend.
We have so very much.
I try to be so very thankful for what I have and remember when I am lusting after something else, that there are others who might lust for what I have.

Can't wait to see what the Lady of the House has got up her sleeve for this blog.

Have a good Monday.
ps- do your boys still take classes at Kips? We are going to pop in there this week and see about getting the girls signed up.

Genn said...

I hear ya girlfriend.
We have so very much.
I try to be so very thankful for what I have and remember when I am lusting after something else, that there are others who might lust for what I have.

Can't wait to see what the Lady of the House has got up her sleeve for this blog.

Have a good Monday.
ps- do your boys still take classes at Kips? We are going to pop in there this week and see about getting the girls signed up.

Jill said...

LOVE!!- this.post.!!- I think I had the same feeling last year!- hang in there!- He's up to something AWESOME!!
Blessings!
Jill

Gabe said...

loved this post. . .its been rattling around in my head since I read it earlier this week. . .its also been hitting on my heart.

Oh, its a scary and wonderful place to be when Jesus gets a hold of your heart that way!

Anonymous said...

I can definitely relate to this post!

Mrs. C... said...

Well done Lady Dunbar! It was funny in spots and a kick in the pants! THanks a lot!!! :) He is up to something Awesome, and it will happen in HIS time. The journey is where He wants you to be content right now.....Who knows maybe you and I are being called to go with Cathy to the Alaskan bush!